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Last words

Stupid How I Met Your Mother episode… It was all about Marshal’s dad’s last words, and everyone was remembering their dads last words and then called their dads at the end of the episode :(

My dad’s last words: “Alright see you next weekend” I don’t remember if there was an exchange of “I love you”s or not. I had just become a band manager/pit transport guy in the marching band because my girlfriend at the time was in the color guard. There was a game the friday I was supposed to go to his house, I could had asked him to pick me up later that night or on saturday, but I asked to switch weekends because I thought it would be easier on him to not make the drive so late or pick me up on saturday and take me back sunday… he died that following wednesday

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  • #life #father #dad #death #how i met your mother #stupid episode :(
  • 2 years ago

Cake or Death

Eddie Izzard 
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  • #eddie izzard #cake #death #or
  • 2 years ago
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So I haven’t done that in a while

I had an interview with a company that I’d really like to work for. I did good in that interview and they are now flying me to Texas for yet another interview.

I told the important folks: my mom, friend who has been helping me out along the way, and an old best friend.

Just now I had the thought “Oh I haven’t told dad yet”. I then picked up my phone and went to my contacts to call him. I got to the D’s. Then it hit me.

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  • #life #father #death #dad
  • 2 years ago
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Thoughts on thoughts of death

I am fairly calloused to death or the idea of impending death. When my dad died, it affected me, but not in the way I thought it should had. Of course I was sad, but just not as sad as most people would be.

Today, my grandmother is having/had some kind of heart surgery and apparently it isn’t going very well. My step-dad called me to tell me that it looks bad, but they really don’t know what is going to happen. All I could think is “That sucks, I hope it doesn’t end badly”

I guess I just don’t know how to feel about death, I mainly just see it as a part of life that sucks.

Maybe.. hopefully.. this view will change later in my life. My dad he was really important to me, I was never really close to my grandmother, but maybe when it’s someone I love/d romantically or close friends it will be different. 

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  • #life #thoughts #death
  • 2 years ago

Death

the biggest distraction from life of all

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  • #life #death #book of proverbs
  • 2 years ago
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I’m going to build my own coffin.

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  • #life #thought #death
  • 3 years ago
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  • #doom and gloom #death #painting #concept art #diablo 3 #beautiful
  • 3 years ago
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Everybody dies in Memphis.

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  • #death #memphis
  • 3 years ago

You don’t forget, you just move on.

Gibbs
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  • #NCIS #life #death
  • 3 years ago

This is mildly funny, and slightly sad. I think I’m starting to believe in god. Not because I found faith or the church or anything like that. But my life is getting so fucked up, there must be some higher power that really fucking distastes me.

Lemme give ya a run down.

My dad died at 16. A few months later the girl i just spent 2 years of my life with left me. I still had some confidence then. Found a new girl. She was magical, but somehow things fell apart, and she left me. I thought “well at least I still have a few friends and my dog.” Well being 1550 miles away makes friends forget you, and my dog died recently. Even now I’m losing a friend because of mere hearsay and things I do not remember. She was the best one I had, and shes gone.

What am I left with? An education, debt, and the most extreme loneliness I’ve ever experienced. Everything I’ve loved or cared for, is gone or leaving.

Its hard to live the peaceful life I’ve tried so hard to live when important people are falling out of my life like leaves off a tree.

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  • #alone #god #hates me #death
  • 3 years ago

91907

September 19 2007 my father died. I was pulled out of class and sent down to the school principle’s office. I remember thinking the entire matter was about cussing out a coach earlier that day. I got down there and saw one of my dad’s friends. All I could think was “Wtf is going on?”. They told me my dad past away that day’s morning. The only words I could muster were “Wow.. that really sucks.” The principle asked if I wanted to just get my things and go home. I declined and just went back to class. I accepted his death incredibly fast. Some people think that we weren’t close, in fact I was closest to him than my mom. 

Three years ago this happened. Yet it feels like yesterday I was on the phone telling him “I’ll see you next weekend” and at the same time it feels like life times ago I last saw him. 

As unhappy with my life how it is right now, everything that is going right and well is due to him dieing. I’m from a lower middle class family. With out this terrible event I’d have a half broken down ‘60 Ford Econoline (which is pretty awesome if you ask me lol), a crap computer barely able to run an eighth of the software available now days, and I would be in some crap community college. Instead I have a nice but reasonable sporty car(HHR SS), a powerful gaming computer, and one of the best and fastest computer science educations in the nation. I am very thankful for what he left me in his death. He gave me a great start in this world most kids don’t get.

But I’d give this entire life up for one last weekend at my dad’s.

I’m so tired of hearing my friends say they don’t like their parents. Yeah they may not get along, and there are some exceptions. But for the most part they don’t know how good they have it. 

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  • #death #parents #life
  • 3 years ago
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